...So I guess I'm Selfish.

When the Pharisees heard that He had silenced the Sadducees, they came together in the same place. And one of them, an expert in the law, asked a question to test Him: "Teacher, which commandment in the law is the greatest?" He said to him, "Love the Lord your God with all your heart, with all your soul, and with all your mind. This is the greatest and most important commandment." -Matt. 22:34-38

Funny how simple it is. Jesus himself tells us that above anything else in this world, this is the most important commandment. I know Jesus was all about parables so just in case, let us break this down even further shall we?

Love God the mostest.

Confusing? If so, we may need to talk.

I have been trying to write this devotional for quite some time. This is an aggravating battle for me. I believed that if I had all the knowledge of all the laws or teachings, then I would be able to write. Or maybe if I had the right bible, with all the words and parables broken down, then I could be worthy enough to speak. Until then, my writing would be equivalent to someone cooking up a mean ramen; good effort, no substance.

I found myself comparing my devotions to that of my peers. Why can't I write novels and bring the word to the masses (Or in this case, you three people; you guys rock!). So rather than even trying, I let it go by.

Then last night, I read Van's blog (Check it out) and reread Matthew 22. in vv. 37-38, Jesus speaks about the greatest and most important commandment. Interesting Blog, I thought. Well, now time for mine. Be Amazed.

I pulled out two bibles, the Apologetics and Dakes, to Mark. Alright, I'm ready to be amazing. Now these two bibles are awesome; full of side information, breakdowns, and everything. Perfect, let the magic happen. But as I read, I just could not think of anything good to write about. Maybe the Dakes will help. Too bad it just confused the crap out of me. Frustrated and feeling defeated, I decided to call it a night.

I felt disappointed not being able to write anything. Lord, what am I doing? I am trying, but I feel so childish, so ignorant. I soon drifted to sleep. All I could think of was Matthew 22.

"Love the Lord your God with all your heart, with all your soul, and with all your mind."

I awoke to that verse. How foolish was I? All I could see was pride in my heart. All I could think about was how to show off my writing talents and my ability to read. Rather than trusting in the Lord's teachings, I relied on my flesh. How can someone who loves the Lord not even trust Him to speak?

So here I am speaking to you guys about what Jesus wants in our lives. He wants us to put God first and foremost! So anytime you feel stressed, sad, or angry, remember the first commandment. If you follow the first commandment, you won't ever have room to feel anything else.

Sorry for such a long entry, but I think I'll leave you with this:
Rejoice in the Lord always. I will say it again: Rejoice! -Philippians 4:4