My, has time passed.

For those who don't know already, tomorrow is February 21. It also marks the day of the anniversary of Lynette's passing. There has been so many things that have come and gone since then and I can't help but think how things could've been different.

My, has time passed.


This thought continues to pass through my head. Cliche as it sounds, time has come so fast. I still remember working so late at Target and hearing the news from my dad. I still remember going and leaving the hospital amazed at how surreal life looked. I still remember being in the room with the family I've known most of my life; watching a sister that I grew up with depart. Yet two years have almost come since.

My, has time passed.

I still think of the people I met that day. Strangers at face value, I quickly inherited friends and family. There are so many people in here, I thought. I felt joy, laughter, and sadness all blended together in this room of strangers.

So many memories.

I remember the stuff we shared. The laughter, the advice, the love that I've never felt before; a sisterly love that can only come from someone that actually cared about what I had to say, understanding that no one else could relate to. We were the same age, we had gone through the same schools, we both had relationships. The only female I could confide in without judgment that I knew could understand.

I remember the awesome randomness that she brought into my life. The times she would bring cheese from home just to make grilled cheese sandwiches. The random thoughts that I never could expect come out of a woman. Few women have come close to the randomness that was Ling.

Oh Lord, Thank You.

I was so confused at first. Why her? What's going on? A million thoughts ran through my head. Lord, this doesn't happen to us. We've got too much on our plate already, why this? I've never been involved in something as serious as this. I grew fearful of what was going to happen. But I knew the Lord was in control. He gave us strength to go on, wisdom to grow in adversity, peace where there was none. He led me to people I would never have known had we not met in the hospital (Jake, Angelo, Candy, Jason I love you all). I learned more about friendship (Louise, Karen, Candy, Kit, Lyndse, Jonie, Lisa, Becky) and brotherhood that I couldn't have imagined (Van, Ruy, Lyndon, Kot, Josh, Just, Jasper, Jason, Jake, Alec, thank you guys for always being there for me. Through the thick and thin, you guys lived it with me and I'm eternally grateful). I grew closer to the friends who've accepted me into their family (Lyndon, Lyndse, Josh, Justin, Kit, and Kot, you guys are the best bros/sis(es? does that work?)/cousins I know. You guys don't know how much you mean to me. You guys are the closest people I have to siblings. We've shared a lot and I'm so grateful.). I've even grown in my faith (God, who knew that I could actually talk to people. Oh duh, you. *end cheesy monologue*). All of this is because of You Lord. Thank You for everything.

My, has time passed.

Two years have passed and I can't believe how things have changed. The family has grown closer and I've definitely have become more open to my emotions. I look back at just these past two years and I can't help but thank you Ling for helping me get to the person I am today. It's good to reminisce once in a while, but I'm ready for what the future holds. The memories I will cherish forever. Thank you.

Side note:
If I've forgotten anyone, I am so very sorry. It's almost 2 am and I just gotta write this before I go to sleep. You guys are all so special to me and I'm so grateful that God's graced me with yall's presence. I've gone from having no friends to being in abundance and I know that's got nothing to do me. I love you guys and I can't wait to experience the rest of our lives with all of you.